Happy Birthday Mak

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Mom turns 63 today. Happy Birthday Mak. She doesn’t want a celebration, given the situation we’re in right now, while my mak su (mom’s younger n only sister) is not in good health it’s just not right for a big bash. So I took her out for a steamboat dinner with my brothers. There’s no cake or candle just us having a small talk.

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I understand her feelings at this moment. All she could think n talk about is maksu. We even visited her this afternoon before dinner. She’s back home cos I think there’s not much the Dr can do. No one seems to say or hear any good news now. Just a somber mood surrounding us. It’s hard n difficult to talk about it. I still shed tears, every now n then. Whenever I think of her, I still cried buckets except nobody knows about it. I’d cry in my sleep, while driving n when ever I have a single unoccupied moment.

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I think mom did the same too. We never discuss about our sadness, we never dwell cos it’s too bitter to swallow. We tried to let go but the pain lingers. This is by far the saddest birthday for her perhaps because no matter how much we tried we failed miserably.

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I hope we’ll be able to celebrate it better next year. I pray n I wish for her 64th. InsyAllah. Mak, may Allah always give u the strength to face the future. I love u..we love you…always………

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