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Dear friends,

I will not be able to update my blog just yet. My family had a great lost. My father in law passed away on 3rd Dec 2011. It's been a sad day ever since. I'm still at hub's hometown in Kuching, Sarawak. Will be here for the next few days. Words fail to describe the emptiness within. Rest in peace fil, Wan Muhammad Tuanku Shukran. May Allah bless his soul. We miss you dearly. Al Fatihah.

In Memory Of Maksu...

I dont know how to start this entry, i've been staring at my lappie screen and wondering the right way to say it. We lay her to rest this morning at 10 am. Finally she left us to meet her creator, the almighty Allah swt. My tears are cheap..they drop at every second and every thought of her.

I was at mom's place when we received the call from my uncle yesterday (22/7) at 3.30 pm. My heart cringe looking at mom sobbing. She has lost her only sister. She said she felt so alone, all i could do was nod and pretend to hear her words. I felt pain in my chest and suffocated, perhaps because i was crying so hard. I have never felt this kind of sadness i dont even know how to describe.

After almost 2 years of battling cancer, she passed away peacefully at the age of 47. For the past 2 months i've been her constant visitors. I listen to her cries of pain, to her rambling and her hope for tomorrow. Every now and then i utter words of courage, or perhaps lie. Told her she'll be able to walk outside the house soon, that she'll get better so that she can perform her 'umrah' again. So many dreams...

She's in good place now..i know she'll be among his many angels, my beautiful aunt is a good wife, mother and friend. Letting go is the hardest thing to do. Despite being reminded that she no longer suffer in this painful world..i am still selfish to want her to be with us. I pray to be forgiven for my sin. Rest in peace dear maksu..i miss u so much!!! Al Fatihah....

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Datin Hajjah Asmah Bt Hashim

1963-2010

In Memory of Arwah Siti Marlina..my cousin

Remember my entry on ‘100 days’. We had ‘tahlil’ to mark the 100 days since my arwah cousin passed away. Few days later the family went to visit arwah’s kubur to plant flowers and also to pay respect to their late sister. Eida ( the youngest in the family) was kind enough to let me share this photos with my FB frens and bloggers.

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My Cousin (Julie), Arwah's husband n kids, Mak Long

It’s just a memory that I wish to cherish with frens n family. Thou sometimes it’s hard to swallow and yet many2 of my frens out there reminded me of how lucky we are to be given the opportunity to cherished our own life with our love ones while we can.

My Cousin (Eida) n Mak Long holding little Qays (Arwah's son)

Take each and everyday and make use of it to our best ability for we will never know what ‘Allah’ has bestowed upon our fate. Love ur family, ur frens, neighbours and people around u for u may never know when u will say ur last goodbye..be good..be nice..as u want to be remembered.

Arwahs's daughter n husband

Al Fatihah…

Sad Day..

Al Fatihah...

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A sad and tragic day for us indeed. Hubby's Brother In Law passed away this afternoon due to heart attack. Arwah leaves behind my sister in law and 7 children. May Allah blessed his soul. Aminnn....

100 Days

Today marks the 100 days since my ‘arwah’ (cousin) passed away. We attended tahlil at pak long’s house tonite. Arwah’s son Qays Aiden is now 5 mths old. He’s a jovial and a strong baby. I saw him smiling today and yes he’s gonna be a heart breaker one day. ..hehehe. what can I say..he’s adorable!!!

Cousins

There’s so much things playing around my mind but I guess it’s hard to spill it out here..only thing is I believe a mother would sacrifice anything and everything for her children including her own life. Yes that’s how big a sacrifice ‘arwah’ did and I pray that ‘heaven’ is where she belongs. InsyAllah..and may Allah blessed her soul. Amin..

Arwah's Daughter

Gone Too Soon

Like A Comet

Blazing ‘Cross The Evening Sky

Gone Too Soon
Like A Rainbow

Fading In The Twinkling Of An Eye

Gone Too Soon
Shiny And Sparkly

And Splendidly Bright

Here One Day

Gone One Night
Like The Loss Of Sunlight

On A Cloudy Afternoon

Gone Too Soon
Like A Castle

Built Upon A Sandy Beach

Gone Too Soon
Like A Perfect Flower

That Is Just Beyond Your Reach

Gone Too Soon
Born To Amuse, To Inspire, To Delight

Here One Day

Gone One Night
Like A Sunset

Dying With The Rising Of The Moon

Gone Too Soon
Gone Too Soon